Things Learned

Hello! My name is "Pharisee". I am a good, upstanding person that thinks that I'm better than "those people" over there, sinning and doing things that are wicked. I don't see my own sin as I see other's. I am not as bad as I really am.  Hello! My name is "Sinner". I can do nothing "good" or "right". My sinful flesh gets in the way every single day.  Hello! My name is "Selfish". I want things that I can't have. I keep things instead of giving them away. I don't tell others the Truth, I just keep it hidden away inside myself. I am disgusted when I look at myself. My apathy towards my sin. The way I won't stop and share the Truth with the people around me, even when I don't pull out the excuse (one of many) "I don't have time." But then my Saviour comes my way and says "I can make all things new", "If you confess your sins, I am able to forgive and to cleanse...

So lately I've been faced with this question (in my own brain)....  "Why Wait?"  Lord knows what I want, but it's just not coming to me.  1. I would like a male companion to spend time with.  - nope 2. I would like to have a job (at least one that pays). - nope 3. I would like to have my own space (house/apartment/whatever) to live in.  - nope God keeps on telling me "no"...or at least "wait".... on these things.  But "why wait?" God knows the answer(s) to these questions, but I certainly don't. AND THAT'S OKAY..... I don't need to know why the answer isn't "yes" yet. I'm perfectly content with where God has me, He knows best.  1. If I had that male companion, I wouldn't be able to help my parents like I do. 2. If I had that job, the things that are important right now, wouldn't be able to be done.  3. If I had my own place, I wouldn't have the help of my wonderful parents t...

I haven't posted in a while because I have been going through a valley and haven't had much to say....at least anything *positive* or *uplifting*. Sometimes, life takes different directions...the mountaintops are far between, and the valley seems to never end. That's where I've been. I'm not sure if I'm even out of the valley yet, but I need to write to say a few things that I've kept bottled up inside. It's not good for me to do that, because it can get so depressing and lonely when I keep things to myself. So here goes.... What do I want to tell the world?  - I want to say that I am very flawed. I let my circumstances, my flaws, situations, control my attitude.  - I also let my flaws overwhelm me. I see SO MANY things that need fixing in myself, and there's no way under Heaven that I can fix them. My son and I were listening to the radio on our way home from church Sunday night, and it reminded me of something that I should be teaching...

It's been a little over 2 years since my world changed forever. "Affair" - that still causes a twinge of pain in my heart.  "How?"  I'd ask myself. "Why?"  Still don't have the answer to that question.  Looking back, I can see the hand of God in those days, weeks, years following my sad realization of the marriage coming to an end. Sometimes I wonder, should I have tried harder? Only God knows the answer to that one. God has been the one unshakable, unchanging, supporting "factor" in my shaken-up, very-much-changed life. I love Him so much because He rescued me. He reached His loving hand down into the pit that I had gotten myself in to, and scooped me up and set me on the Rock that will always stand firm.  I just want to publicly say Thank You to my Saviour for all He has done in my life. Undeserved. Merciful to me. The strength that I did not have, He gave to me and said "Use it for MY glory!" Thank you, LORD!!! ...

Everyday, you have a decision. You have a decision to give God 1st place in your life... or not. You have a decision to acknowledge God in your ways... or not. Job, a servant of the Lord, chose to follow God instead of ignoring Him. That loyalty was tested when Satan, the accuser of the brethren, came on the scene one day. Satan saw Job, a 'perfect' [blameless] and upright man, following God in all that he did, and wanted to see if Job's loyalty had a solid foundation or not. So Satan went to God and got permission from God to test Job's faith. Not everything in this life is understandable. Sometimes a loved one gets sick and it's a slow, enduring process; sometimes bodily pain wears us down so much that we question why God lets us endure those things. Job did not. We need to learn from him. Job 1:13-22: " And there was a day when his sons and his daughters were eating and drinking wine in their eldest brother's house: and there came a messenger...

I was reading in Revelation this morning, chapter 21 specifically, and what God has to say through His Word about the new heaven and new earth that will be created after the Rapture and Tribulation and the judgment time that comes for all those that have rejected Christ. In verses 15-21 is the description of  the "new Jerusalem" and wow, does it sound amazing. 12 layers of precious jewels make up the foundation! Gold as clear as glass for the streets. But the greatest of all that will be in Heaven is my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ and God the Father! I can't wait to meet Them!! I was sought out by God and saved by His amazing grace on Halloween night, October 31, 1995. The night that I asked Jesus to come into my heart and save me was the same night that God wrote my name in the Lamb's Book of Life and prepared a mansion for me in Heaven. The same night, the Holy Spirit came to dwell in my heart so that I could be guided by Him and know how to live my life for ...

As of late, I have been very discontent with my life and where I'm at in it. More times than not, it has led me down a "poor, pitiful me" road. I've tried to get past it, but anything done in my own flesh is a failure, to say the least.  Circumstances, failures, situations in my life have left me.... well.... sad.                                            Is Being Sad A Sin? As I sit here thinking, I still don't have the concrete answer to this question, but I do know it is if it distracts from your walk with Christ. And to be quite honest with you, my sadness and self-inflicted pity party has done just that.  So, this blog post is meant to be a "fire-starter-under-rear-portions" for myself and to any of you that have found yourself in the "Pity Party Doldrums". You might have been abandoned. Cheated on. Abused. Mistreated. Hurt. You might have committe...