Things Learned

It's been about a year since I've last posted because I've been in a "holding" stage of life.... up until now. So many aspects of life are changing. Some that I have not gotten my "100% total answer" about, and some are just changing how I see and feel about things. Let me rabbit-trail for a moment or 2.... (I'm good at that!) God has not been easily "seen" in quite a while, but I know that He is still there and is guiding me because of unmistakable circumstances that only the God of the Universe could do. It's easy for me to go along my way, doing what I want to do, being who I want to be...but not getting satisfaction out of any of it. God should be the One "ordering my steps" (Psalm 119:133) and I should willingly give Him control because He knows what's "coming up next" (Jeremiah 29:11). With all that said...Why is it so easy to dismiss God from our lives? Is it because we truly do not see all tha...

A preacher was on an airplane, reading a secular magazine that had an article in it about Hell. The article detailed a preacher saying that there was, basically, no such place as Hell and that if preachers stuck with what Jesus said, there would be no preaching about Hell. A businessman on the other aisle of the airplane heard the preacher laugh and was curious as to what he was laughing about. The preacher told the businessman about the article, but he couldn't understand what was so humorous about it. He said he was not a religious man and had no experience in such, so the preacher gave him a task. He handed the businessman his Bible and asked him if he would be willing to look in the book of Matthew at all the Red Letter words (the words of Jesus) and underline everything that talked about judgment, life and death, and Hell. He accepted the task and for the next 45 minutes went through the book, underlining all he found. When he was done, he looked at the preacher and said ...

To the woman that is raising my son's future wife..... I want you to know that your future Son-in-Law is being raised right now with a few specific goals. He will by no means be a perfect husband to your daughter, but he is being raised to be a Godly man that will love unconditionally, show affection (which we both know all women need), and will treat your daughter with respect and dignity. My prayer is 2-fold, right now. I pray that God will show me everything that my son needs to be, in order to grow up to be a Godly man who will serve Christ with his life and be a leader to his family. The 2nd part of my prayer is that you are doing the same with my future Daughter-in-Law. I pray that right now, God is supplying you with the wisdom to raise her to be a Godly young woman that will be a Proverbs 31 woman to my son. I pray that your daughter and my son will save their bodies to give to one another on their wedding night. Purity is so hard to keep, but I know that if we teac...

Hello! My name is "Pharisee". I am a good, upstanding person that thinks that I'm better than "those people" over there, sinning and doing things that are wicked. I don't see my own sin as I see other's. I am not as bad as I really am.  Hello! My name is "Sinner". I can do nothing "good" or "right". My sinful flesh gets in the way every single day.  Hello! My name is "Selfish". I want things that I can't have. I keep things instead of giving them away. I don't tell others the Truth, I just keep it hidden away inside myself. I am disgusted when I look at myself. My apathy towards my sin. The way I won't stop and share the Truth with the people around me, even when I don't pull out the excuse (one of many) "I don't have time." But then my Saviour comes my way and says "I can make all things new", "If you confess your sins, I am able to forgive and to cleanse...

So lately I've been faced with this question (in my own brain)....  "Why Wait?"  Lord knows what I want, but it's just not coming to me.  1. I would like a male companion to spend time with.  - nope 2. I would like to have a job (at least one that pays). - nope 3. I would like to have my own space (house/apartment/whatever) to live in.  - nope God keeps on telling me "no"...or at least "wait".... on these things.  But "why wait?" God knows the answer(s) to these questions, but I certainly don't. AND THAT'S OKAY..... I don't need to know why the answer isn't "yes" yet. I'm perfectly content with where God has me, He knows best.  1. If I had that male companion, I wouldn't be able to help my parents like I do. 2. If I had that job, the things that are important right now, wouldn't be able to be done.  3. If I had my own place, I wouldn't have the help of my wonderful parents t...

I haven't posted in a while because I have been going through a valley and haven't had much to say....at least anything *positive* or *uplifting*. Sometimes, life takes different directions...the mountaintops are far between, and the valley seems to never end. That's where I've been. I'm not sure if I'm even out of the valley yet, but I need to write to say a few things that I've kept bottled up inside. It's not good for me to do that, because it can get so depressing and lonely when I keep things to myself. So here goes.... What do I want to tell the world?  - I want to say that I am very flawed. I let my circumstances, my flaws, situations, control my attitude.  - I also let my flaws overwhelm me. I see SO MANY things that need fixing in myself, and there's no way under Heaven that I can fix them. My son and I were listening to the radio on our way home from church Sunday night, and it reminded me of something that I should be teaching...

It's been a little over 2 years since my world changed forever. "Affair" - that still causes a twinge of pain in my heart.  "How?"  I'd ask myself. "Why?"  Still don't have the answer to that question.  Looking back, I can see the hand of God in those days, weeks, years following my sad realization of the marriage coming to an end. Sometimes I wonder, should I have tried harder? Only God knows the answer to that one. God has been the one unshakable, unchanging, supporting "factor" in my shaken-up, very-much-changed life. I love Him so much because He rescued me. He reached His loving hand down into the pit that I had gotten myself in to, and scooped me up and set me on the Rock that will always stand firm.  I just want to publicly say Thank You to my Saviour for all He has done in my life. Undeserved. Merciful to me. The strength that I did not have, He gave to me and said "Use it for MY glory!" Thank you, LORD!!! ...