Monday, June 6, 2016

But You loved me anyway.....


It's been about a year since I've last posted because I've been in a "holding" stage of life....
up until now.

So many aspects of life are changing. Some that I have not gotten my "100% total answer" about, and some are just changing how I see and feel about things.

Let me rabbit-trail for a moment or 2.... (I'm good at that!)
God has not been easily "seen" in quite a while, but I know that He is still there and is guiding me because of unmistakable circumstances that only the God of the Universe could do. It's easy for me to go along my way, doing what I want to do, being who I want to be...but not getting satisfaction out of any of it.
God should be the One "ordering my steps" (Psalm 119:133) and I should willingly give Him control because He knows what's "coming up next" (Jeremiah 29:11).

With all that said...Why is it so easy to dismiss God from our lives?

Is it because we truly do not see all that He Is? Do we not care? Do we not dive into His Word, the Holy Bible, in search of the love, the comfort, the peace, the rest, the shield, the fortress, the provider, the protector, the strengthener, and so much more...that is GOD?

Maybe it's easy to dismiss God because in the times of quietness and waiting, God might be wanting to see if we "step up" and seek Him and increase our faith.
But like an All-Loving Heavenly Father, He knows our weaknesses. He knows the future and how we are going to fail Him and that sometimes we won't seek His face and His plan.

I am the thorn in Your crown.....
I am the sweat from Your brow......
I am the nail in Your wrist......
I am Judas' kiss......

BUT YOU LOVED ME ANYWAY!!!

And for that, I am eternally thankful.



Sunday, May 31, 2015

Hell or Heaven? Are they real?


A preacher was on an airplane, reading a secular magazine that had an article in it about Hell. The article detailed a preacher saying that there was, basically, no such place as Hell and that if preachers stuck with what Jesus said, there would be no preaching about Hell.
A businessman on the other aisle of the airplane heard the preacher laugh and was curious as to what he was laughing about. The preacher told the businessman about the article, but he couldn't understand what was so humorous about it. He said he was not a religious man and had no experience in such, so the preacher gave him a task. He handed the businessman his Bible and asked him if he would be willing to look in the book of Matthew at all the Red Letter words (the words of Jesus) and underline everything that talked about judgment, life and death, and Hell. He accepted the task and for the next 45 minutes went through the book, underlining all he found.
When he was done, he looked at the preacher and said "What was that preacher in the article thinking?! There are MANY things that Jesus said concerning the topic!" and the preacher was able to lead the businessman to a saving knowledge of Christ, right there on that plane.

The story is true and the preacher's name is David Wood, a great preacher and soul-winner for Christ. I had the privilege of hearing him speak at church this Sunday morning. He preached about the demon-possessed man that met Christ and was freed from his demons and was gloriously saved from his past life. After his salvation, he wanted to go with Christ and learn more about Him, but Jesus told him "no". 
That can be a very confusing passage of Scripture. Jesus told him "no" to a "good thing"? Why would He say "no" to the man that He just rescued?

Maybe because of Hell. 

Think about this....
The demon-possessed man had lived a life that some might say was "hell on Earth". He had experienced many things that I'm sure he wish he hadn't. I'm sure being demon-possessed, one might see, feel, smell, and taste things that are not pleasant. Demon possession is no walk in the park. It is being filled with Satan, basically. It would be considered "hell on Earth". 

But then....
Enter JESUS.

Jesus is Light and Life. He rescues. He heals. He SAVES!
The demons were no match for Jesus. The Bible says that even the devils believe and tremble at His Name. When the demon-possessed man met Jesus, he was living in despair, in torment, but after the man met Jesus, he was rescued from that same despair and torment. 

You ask anybody out there this question "Is Heaven real?" and the majority of people will say "yes, I believe it is a real place." But you ask those same people "Is Hell real?" and many of them will say "No!". If people believe Heaven is real, then why don't they also believe in a real place called Hell? The Bible speaks of both places, yet some take one place as Truth and the other place as made-up. Can you see the fallacy in logic here?

I believe people don't want to believe in Hell because if there was such a place, then there must be a choice to be made somewhere as to which place you would go. That would constitute a "right" and a "wrong". People say "Don't judge me!" because they don't want to be made to feel they are "wrong" about something. There is a self-entitlement mentality that we deserve to be right and nobody should make us feel we are wrong about anything.

Praise GOD the demon-possessed man didn't have that mindset. He realized his "pitiful state of self" and gave his heart to Jesus Christ and was transformed from despair and torture, to joy and freedom!

If you are not 100% sure that if you died today, your next breath would be in Heaven in the presence of God, I would love for you to receive that assurance today! 

The Bible says in Romans 3:23 that all have sinned. I have sinned, you have sinned, there is NO perfect people here on Earth.
Romans 6:23 teaches that the penalty of sin is death and Hell. We are separated from God because of our sin. God is Holy and cannot be in sin's presence, so we are separated from Him. If God is in Heaven, and sin cannot be in the presence of God, then Heaven cannot be the future Home for an unsaved person. Hell is their eternal home.
Romans 5:8 says that Jesus paid the penalty for our sin. When Jesus died on the cross, He took all of sin and placed it on Himself and paid for our sin with His perfect blood that was shed on that cross. 3 days later, He rose from the grave showing that He is the Christ and had the power to pay for our sin.
Romans 10:13 says that if you will believe with your heart that Christ died for you, paid your sin debt, and rose from the grave showing His power to do all of that for you, if you ask Him to come into your heart to save you, He will do that!

A person that has asked Jesus to save him is a person that has a future home in Heaven and is no longer destined for Hell. That's what happened to the demon-possessed man. That's what happened to me. That's what can happen for you! Make today the day that you give your heart to Christ. You won't regret it!!

God bless!!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

An Open Letter to my Son's Future Mother-in-Law


To the woman that is raising my son's future wife.....

I want you to know that your future Son-in-Law is being raised right now with a few specific goals. He will by no means be a perfect husband to your daughter, but he is being raised to be a Godly man that will love unconditionally, show affection (which we both know all women need), and will treat your daughter with respect and dignity.

My prayer is 2-fold, right now. I pray that God will show me everything that my son needs to be, in order to grow up to be a Godly man who will serve Christ with his life and be a leader to his family.
The 2nd part of my prayer is that you are doing the same with my future Daughter-in-Law. I pray that right now, God is supplying you with the wisdom to raise her to be a Godly young woman that will be a Proverbs 31 woman to my son.

I pray that your daughter and my son will save their bodies to give to one another on their wedding night. Purity is so hard to keep, but I know that if we teach them that their purity is special, that it is honoring to God, and that it is a special gift that should be given only in marriage, that it will be for the good. 

Future Mother-in-Law, I pray for you tonight, as well as your daughter. 
I pray for strength.... 
I pray for wisdom.....
For both you.... and me.











Sunday, September 21, 2014

Hello! My name is "Pharisee"

Hello! My name is "Pharisee". I am a good, upstanding person that thinks that I'm better than "those people" over there, sinning and doing things that are wicked. I don't see my own sin as I see other's. I am not as bad as I really am. 

Hello! My name is "Sinner". I can do nothing "good" or "right". My sinful flesh gets in the way every single day. 

Hello! My name is "Selfish". I want things that I can't have. I keep things instead of giving them away. I don't tell others the Truth, I just keep it hidden away inside myself.

I am disgusted when I look at myself. My apathy towards my sin. The way I won't stop and share the Truth with the people around me, even when I don't pull out the excuse (one of many) "I don't have time."

But then my Saviour comes my way and says "I can make all things new", "If you confess your sins, I am able to forgive and to cleanse them and make you righteous", and "I am light and like a city on a hill, my light (Truth) cannot be hid" and He invites me to follow Him and to be changed by His Truth. 

I believe that God lets me see myself as I really am, as an invitation to change into the person He says I can become. 

When a tapestry maker is weaving his artwork, from the back it looks like a piece of jumbled up mess. The threads don't fit together in design and it looks very disheveled. But from the front side, that same tapestry is a beautiful work of art. 
There are two sides to every story...the "back side" that we see, and then the "front side" that God sees and is weaving into something beautiful for our good.

I am not defined by my faults, even though they are many. I AM defined by my status, and that is as a child of the ONE TRUE KING, MY Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ!! With HIM, all things are possible and can be overcome!!


Saturday, July 12, 2014

Seasons of Life - Turn, Turn, Turn....

Is it just me, or do you ever feel at different times in life that it's time for change? 
The Bible does talk about "seasons" in our lives, so I guess that's what I'm talking about....a "season" gone and a new one begun. 
I examine myself and am frustrated. I need change. I know I need to be doing so many things better, one of those being taking better care of myself in all aspects - physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. The latter one more so than the others...or so I reason.
The Holy Spirit lives inside my heart because of the salvation decision I made almost 20 years ago. I know I need to change in my relationship with my God. So many fiery darts thrown by the enemy, wanting to get my attention off of my Saviour. I'm not going to let it happen. 
What season are you in right now? Do you feel the need for change? 

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Why Wait?

So lately I've been faced with this question (in my own brain).... 
"Why Wait?"  Lord knows what I want, but it's just not coming to me. 

1. I would like a male companion to spend time with. 
- nope

2. I would like to have a job (at least one that pays).
- nope

3. I would like to have my own space (house/apartment/whatever) to live in. 
- nope

God keeps on telling me "no"...or at least "wait".... on these things. 
But "why wait?" God knows the answer(s) to these questions, but I certainly don't.

AND THAT'S OKAY.....

I don't need to know why the answer isn't "yes" yet. I'm perfectly content with where God has me, He knows best. 

1. If I had that male companion, I wouldn't be able to help my parents like I do.

2. If I had that job, the things that are important right now, wouldn't be able to be done. 

3. If I had my own place, I wouldn't have the help of my wonderful parents to help me raise my son to be a godly man, and that is priceless to me!

Just because my life...choices...doesn't make sense to other people...some that may say I need to get a job, etc....doesn't make it wrong. Only God can judge that. Things in my life might not make sense to others. Things in your life....God-given things...might not make sense to me. Doesn't make it wrong, just different.

So...."why wait?" 
Because God knows best and I will rest in that!!


Monday, May 26, 2014

Even in the valley God is good

I haven't posted in a while because I have been going through a valley and haven't had much to say....at least anything *positive* or *uplifting*. Sometimes, life takes different directions...the mountaintops are far between, and the valley seems to never end. That's where I've been.
I'm not sure if I'm even out of the valley yet, but I need to write to say a few things that I've kept bottled up inside. It's not good for me to do that, because it can get so depressing and lonely when I keep things to myself. So here goes....

What do I want to tell the world? 
- I want to say that I am very flawed. I let my circumstances, my flaws, situations, control my attitude. 
- I also let my flaws overwhelm me. I see SO MANY things that need fixing in myself, and there's no way under Heaven that I can fix them.

My son and I were listening to the radio on our way home from church Sunday night, and it reminded me of something that I should be teaching my son, so I turned the radio off and said to my son that his worth was not measured on what he could or could not do, but rather Who lived inside of him....Jesus Christ. I said to my son "This lesson took me far too long to learn."
But did it? Do I really understand MY worth? Am I teaching my son something that I'm not following myself? 

Why is it SO hard to understand our worth as women? Have we been so hardened by the world's definition of our worth...or lack thereof? Does it deal with surrendering ourselves to Someone else?

Surrender.... Such a difficult, yet simple, word. 
Pride....such a simple word, yet incredibly difficult to overcome. 

Can't surrender to Someone else the place where Pride resides. 

And so, the battle begins. 
Dying to myself. 
Surrendering to Him....